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Tuesday, 09 December 2008

Currently
Attack and Release
By The Black Keys
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Yeah yah, I know it's been forever. It' been a hectic semester to say the least.
and it's still not over.
not even close.
I still have to finish a paper, perform a show, and take three finals all before next friday.

But altogether it's been fantastic. That's probably why I haven't bothered to update. I've just really been enjoying living rather than writing about living.

I still can't believe I've been with Matt for over a year now. I never imagined I could still be so in love with someone for so long. I know a year isn't really a huge deal for the most part, but coming from my history of quickie "relationships" it feels monumental. He met very nearly my entire family over Thanksgiving break and it went far better than I had even hoped it would. And as much as he drives me absolutely CRAZY sometimes, I never want to be with anyone else. And sometimes I think about marrying him someday. And sometimes he feels the same. And sometimes we realize it's way too soon to tell. He makes me feel warm and safe and loved and I know I make him happy and to me, that's all that matters right now. We even took a trip over Columbus Day weekend up to Lake George, NY to his parents' cottage by ourselves. We hiked over 15 miles in two days and we had an absolute blast being by ourselves out in the middle of nowhere. It made me realize that I really am a country girl. No big cities for me. Just me, my man, a good book, a cuddly cat, and a roaring fireplace in a modest house in the middle of the woods and I'm content.

I'm still dancing and loving it. There's nothing like working up a good sweat doing something you love. Once again, sometimes it's so FRUSTRATING, but in the end it's always satisfying. I can't wait to put on our show this weekend. However this means I'm danceing more hours than I'm sleeping this week. But I don't really mind. It lets me put off my paper a little longer, heh.

My classes are still pretty fantastic. The classes in my major are always thought-provoking. They just make me tired of writing research papers. Although if I can magically come up with about $3000 by the summer, I've been invited by my advisor to go with him to a site in Turkey and participate in a dig, which I'm really excited about. It would mean a month away from home, but it would be such a great opportunity to get some experience. I've also been translating Cicero all semester which is no easy feat. I had no idea how convoluted a writer he was until about two and a half months ago. But it's been fantastic practice. In addition to all that, I've been taking a 2D design class which has been great fun. I've made some really interesting designs that I didn't know were in me. I'm really proud of a lot of my work, which I wasn't so sure would happen. It makes me feel pretty good about myself.

I think I'm really starting to settle into myself this year. I've made a cozy little family of close friends and I wouldn't have it any other way. I just wish that school was a little less stressful so that I could really enjoy it. As much as I love it here, I can't wait to go home for the holidays and have some time to relax. :)

But here I go, full-steam ahead through the end of the semester. Ready, set...GO!

Sunday, 05 October 2008

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Abbey Road
By The Beatles
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I love school. I really do. Things have finally settled into place for the semester.

Also Matt and I have been together for almost a year now...

And I wouldn't have wanted to spend it any other way. :D

Sunday, 31 August 2008

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Dreaming Out Loud
By OneRepublic
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We survived the summer. We're better than ever. And I really miss living with him. But I'm settled into my dorm room now...hopefully this will start to feel like home soon enough.

Wednesday, 06 August 2008

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Viva La Vida Or Death And All His Friends
By Coldplay
42
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This summer has been so hard on me. And it's not even that terrible things have happened. It's that I've been fighting every day to feel comfortable in the apaprtment with Matt and the other two roommates, to feel comfortable at work, to feel comfortable driving on a regular basis, to feel comfortable away froom home. I've been walking on eggshells and working so hard to keep my head above water in all theswe different relationships and it's been so taxing. I feel like I'm going to be completely burned out before I even get to school this year. I feel like living here this summer was a poor choice...but it was my only option to have a job and still be with Matt. I'm homesick and worn out and stressed out and worried and over-worked. I just want one week to go home and do nothing but watch TV and eat crap and not deal with anything. But I want to be able to come back after that as if nothing ever happened so that I can go right back to normal life.

I just need someone or something--whatever's out there holding the puppet strings--to cut me some slack.

Monday, 30 June 2008

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The Crane Wife
By The Decemberists
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I've been in Worcester for a little over two weeks now...I think.
I'm living with Matt and our friend Chelsea and a sub-letter named Mark (who happens to be pretty cool).
We're living in Main South right off of Clark campus which is pretty nifty since it's right near the few others of our friends here for the summer.
I've started work at the crappy convenience store (known as Honey Farms) and found it to be pretty tolerable. The people are all really cool, and the hours aren't bad, except that I have to work ALL of 4th of July weekend.
In our precious spare time together, Matt and I have been reading a lot and watching a metric ton of Scrubs and Battlestar Galactica.
I miss camp a lot though. And it sucks that I'm not there this summer, but it's better for my relationship with Matt and to be honest I'm not sure if I would have had the energy for another summer. Not with the resource position becoming basically secondary counselors. Every so often on my way to work I catch a sniff of what would have been a misty camp morning that makes me wish I was there. But I'm probably better off here with Matt.
It's a little boring, but I suppose Worcester has become home for me anyway.

Tuesday, 10 June 2008

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I Am the Movie
By Motion City Soundtrack
Modern Chemistry
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So I'm moving to Worcester for the summer. I'll be living with Matt and a couple friends of ours and I'll be working a crappy job at a local convenience store. But it's better than being cooped up in A-town all summer and I'll be making some kind of money and I won't be mooching off of my mother while she's unemployed. I'll be with the man I love in a cramped apartment with no AC. But I'm positive it's going to be worth it. I just hope I don't get into a car accident or something...

Thursday, 29 May 2008

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Flyleaf
By Flyleaf
So I Thought
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So I've been running around like crazy lately, but it's been a ton of fun. Just got back from Maine with a bunch of friends, and my best friend came back to visit from Alaska for a couple of weeks. :) And then this weekend I'm going to Scotty and Liz's wedding with Matt, and then moving Matt into his new apartment. :D And since no jobs have opened up for me around here, once I coax my father to let me have my car, I'm going back to Worcester to live with Matt for the summer and hopefully find some work up that way so that I can be one less mouth to feed around here.

Here's to hoping the summer goes well.

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

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White Pony
By Deftones
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So Mama just got laid off.
And my brother is still unemployed.
And no place around me is hiring.
And I don't know what on earth I can do right now.

Monday, 05 May 2008

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Third Eye Blind
By Third Eye Blind
Graduate
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It's my last night in town for a while. Now I have to go back "home" for the summer...and I really don't want to. I don't want to put up with my family and have a boring job and have nothing to do most nights of the week. I'm going to be costing my mother so much money on the phone bill talking to Matt. I hope we get to visit as often as possible. If not I may just go insane.

Here's to a miserable summer.

Monday, 21 April 2008

Currently Listening
Transformers: The Movie
By Various Artists
Before it's Too Late
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I feel really betrayed. Apparently people don't really want you to be honest with them. They really just want you to tell them what you know they want to hear.

I guess honesty isn't the best policy after all...and it really sucks that it had to happen like this.

Goodbye to over a decade of summers.